It was a year ago that I called Adam while he was at work and told him I needed a break. I was tired... no. I was completely spent. And I had felt that way for months and nothing was helping. And I was desperate because I didn't want to feel like I did, but I didn't know what to do. Nothing was working.
Our marriage was tired. My parenting was tired. My body was tired. My spirit was thirsty. And I was unhappy.
I didn't know it at that time, but I was depressed. And it took me a few months to realize that I was depressed because I had been ignoring and sabotaging my deepest longings for most of my adult life out of duty and obligation along with a large helping of self-doubt.
And now, one year later, I am in the final stages of writing a book that is partially about my sabbatical with a ton of help for others who find themselves tired, burnt out, and needing space to get some clarity.
I hope that over the next few months that sharing my journey will help others.
For many years, I have held myself back out of fear of not succeeding. I didn't risk because I didn't want to be average. I didn't want people to think I wasn't good enough.
When I started writing this book, I gave the results away to God. I told people that I am risking potentially writing an average (or even below average) book. But as I am in the final (I hope!) stages of editing my book, I am so excited to share it. It leads me to dreams of having sabbatical support options for individuals, short-term small groups for those in a sabbatical, and ministry couple guidance and care for spouses taking a sabbatical at the same time.
Will you pray for the book? Will you pray it gets to the tired, the burnt out, the frustrated, the ones who are at the end of their rope?
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Mark 6:31 The Message Version
30-31 The apostles then rendezvoused with Jesus and reported on all that they had done and taught. Jesus said, “Come off by yourselves; let’s take a break and get a little rest.” For there was constant coming and going. They didn’t even have time to eat.
Love and Peace to you!